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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
haven been bloggin for quite some time le... lots had happen for the past 2 weeks... i noe it's gona be a long post if i were to post everything... so i will leave all tt happen in the last 2 weeks to my memories... =)
anyway... i noe i should be slping at this timing.. but i just cant fall aslp... or shud i say i haven been slping since ytd night...
Class was fun with Immelia ard... my Monday went off well w/o any monday blues.. except for the facts tt im having little flu + running nose.. but this little flu doesnt affect my mood.. mayb coz all the messages i received frm him showing care & concern had overwrite everything.. and i believe everything is fine & well between me & him.. =) he even promise to pick me up after class...
anyway.. other den the fact tt the lecturer was making a little fool of himself in class.. and making very sure his lesson ends at 10pm sharp.. i guess class was great... =) leaving the classroom in a happy mood preparing to acc him for his dinner... suggestion was to had dinner at Mac... drove to the nearest Mac... was telling myself i need a sundae... but................... my sundae didnt come........
something depressing happened (i'll leave out the details & pls dun ask me anything)..... something that hurts me till now...
was suppose to have a talk at east coast park.... i guess it didnt goes well.. coz other than the very hurting word... nothing seems to be in my mind... i sat there like a stone.. the sea breeze was freezing cold.. but i dun feel it at all.. the word is all i can tink of at that time... and everytime i tink of the word.. it jus feels like a knife is stabbed into my heart...
i reached hm at 2+ ytd... forcing myself to go to bed.. but i jus couldnt do it... and i realise i was running high fever... yah... had to apply for my medical leave... went to see the doc.. agree to meet up for another talk today.. he's also working tdy.. i took the medication.. but i didnt had any rest.. thou the med supposed to makes me drowsy.. but i jus cant get to slp...
he picked me up from my place at 3+ this afternoon.. but the talk didnt bring us anywhere... coz the hurting word is still haunting me... i just cant seems to get it off my mind.. and it's causing me to say lotsa of things which i will only say if im crazy... i cancel the meet up with rh.. coz im not in the mood to meet him to talk bout the plan tdy... i might b giving zouk a miss tmr too.. im reali not in the mood for anything....
im suppose to be slping now.. but i reali cant get to bed... i duno why... wonder how this public hol will be.... lonely ?? still hurting ??
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Wednesday, August 08, 2007
haven been bloggin for quite some time le... lots had happen for the past 2 weeks... i noe it's gona be a long post if i were to post everything... so i will leave all tt happen in the last 2 weeks to my memories... =)
anyway... i noe i should be slping at this timing.. but i just cant fall aslp... or shud i say i haven been slping since ytd night...
Class was fun with Immelia ard... my Monday went off well w/o any monday blues.. except for the facts tt im having little flu + running nose.. but this little flu doesnt affect my mood.. mayb coz all the messages i received frm him showing care & concern had overwrite everything.. and i believe everything is fine & well between me & him.. =) he even promise to pick me up after class...
anyway.. other den the fact tt the lecturer was making a little fool of himself in class.. and making very sure his lesson ends at 10pm sharp.. i guess class was great... =) leaving the classroom in a happy mood preparing to acc him for his dinner... suggestion was to had dinner at Mac... drove to the nearest Mac... was telling myself i need a sundae... but................... my sundae didnt come........
something depressing happened (i'll leave out the details & pls dun ask me anything)..... something that hurts me till now...
was suppose to have a talk at east coast park.... i guess it didnt goes well.. coz other than the very hurting word... nothing seems to be in my mind... i sat there like a stone.. the sea breeze was freezing cold.. but i dun feel it at all.. the word is all i can tink of at that time... and everytime i tink of the word.. it jus feels like a knife is stabbed into my heart...
i reached hm at 2+ ytd... forcing myself to go to bed.. but i jus couldnt do it... and i realise i was running high fever... yah... had to apply for my medical leave... went to see the doc.. agree to meet up for another talk today.. he's also working tdy.. i took the medication.. but i didnt had any rest.. thou the med supposed to makes me drowsy.. but i jus cant get to slp...
he picked me up from my place at 3+ this afternoon.. but the talk didnt bring us anywhere... coz the hurting word is still haunting me... i just cant seems to get it off my mind.. and it's causing me to say lotsa of things which i will only say if im crazy... i cancel the meet up with rh.. coz im not in the mood to meet him to talk bout the plan tdy... i might b giving zouk a miss tmr too.. im reali not in the mood for anything....
im suppose to be slping now.. but i reali cant get to bed... i duno why... wonder how this public hol will be.... lonely ?? still hurting ??
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